Jobless, Hmmm full time stay at home wife

Crazy week for losing jobs for many of my friends including me. 

I was lucky in the sense that I knew my contract was finishing up and I knew that it could not be renewed.  

Many other friends not so lucky.  they walked into work and were told that would be there last day. 

So much Fear because some don't have a three month savings buffer and are scared of falling behind in their bills

How come there is such a lack in economic confidence?  How does it happen so fast?

How can jobs be created?  

I'm so lucky that I've tucked money away monthly and that my husband is working right now.  

I have to take a positive spin on this right now.

1. I am going to finish my thesis... read three articles today.  So I don't feel guilty about blogging right now.

2. I have morning time to exercise.  I ran with a friend today and we did pushups, arm dips, and lunges across the field.  it was tough but every day it will get better. 

3. I will cook all meals at home during the week.  I say I and really I mean I will make more meals but my husband will also cook at home.  No going to restaurants during the week.  I don't have it in me to be the full time cook, but I will buy the groceries to save time so when my husband gets home he doesn't have to go and he can chill.

4. I won't be driving as much so I can save on Gas.  

I"ll have to look for some more money saving tips. 

heavy hearted

I'm heavy hearted and frustrated again.  I've typed and erased and typed and erased trying to descramble my head to get this out for myself.  I don't want to feel this way again about our friendship.  I hate the instability of our friendship. 

Any way I presented my trip would not have been accepted/appreciated by you.  A month ago I tested the water to see if you were available without giving anything away in case I was still only in the dream stage.  You had a trip already planned very close to it, I was happy for you, but maybe then I should have expressed some sadness that the timing wasn't going to work for my trip.

I'm frustrated that you got hurt because I didn't invite you.  I knew you couldn't make it. It started out as a possible trip for Lisa and me, I booked my ticket told Angela I did, she saw the price and that same day Angela booked her ticket then Claire showed an interest and asked to join. All in a few hours  It did not start as a "girls trip".  

I do see your point that the invite is the gesture that counts.  I just kept thinking you had other plans. That is why you weren't invited. It was never meant to be hurtful and that frustrates me that you feel that way.  

What should have been an exciting day for me.. booking my ticket turned sour and I worried once again how to rebuild the however many steps I fell down the hill of our friendship.   

  

joining the land of bloggers

Like the headline says I figure I'd try to blog like the rest of the world 

Why, just cause.

No I'm not pregnant, I'm already married, I'm not thinking I'm going to have some kind of cult following and make a few dollars with blog ads and such. 

Just thought I'd try.  

Blogging is the new diary, the new journaling. 

I'm 14 days from being unemployed so I'll have lots of time to post.  My animation contract is done Jan. 30.  And the market is pretty dry.  

So where to start?

Some people say to achieve goals you need to write them down.  That is the first step towards action.  

First goal  ... to finish my Masters.  I'm one assignment and three weeks of my thesis left.  I need to stay motivated, and focused now that my animation contract is almost over.

But isn't starting a blog counter productive to finishing my thesis ..... hmmm